Holiday

Well the weekend is gone and I had a lot of fun. Wednesday I did some baking for Thanksgiving and cleaned a little bit. Thursday it was off to my Aunt Pam's house in Elkhorn at 12. So I slept in a little bit and then just vegged on the bed watching tv until the last possible moment. It was nice just to do that. Went out to Elkhorn and enjoyed the holiday with my mom's side of the family. Went home to watch Grey's Anatomy. Couldn't miss it that is my show!!!!

Friday morning, I was up at 2:30 to get ready. Yes I was one of those crazy shoppers out there. I got some really good deals on things. I was home and in bed by 8 that morning. I got up and went to hang out with some friends at Buffalo Wild Wings to watch Nebraska get there ass kicked by Colorado. (Sorry but there is no nicer way of saying it, we were terrible)

Saturday the greatest gift possible came, T.O. (Tom Osborne) fired Coach Callahan. The football program maybe recovered. After that news I headed up to the parents to have corned beef and cabbage with my grandpa. Then my cousin Jessica and I went off shopping and dinner for my birthday.

Sunday I decorated my apartment for the holidays, I still need to get a few things. Maybe once its all done I will post a few pictures of my tree. It is really small but very cute.

Today is my 25th birthday. I haven't done anything except work. Not sure what is in store for tonight but hopefully I will figure something out. I used to spend my birthday with bill and we would stay in, have dinner and watch movies. Don't really want to do that by myself.

Anyways hopefully everyone had a great holiday weekend.

Mitch

This is a picture of my cousin Mitch. Please pray for him!

Please

Please pray for my cousin Mitch, he has been hurt over in Iraq and is being sent to Germany for medical help. Then they are sending him to the states. Stay strong!

Grandma

I have so many memories of my grandma and we couldn't wait for the day that I turned 21 so we could go to the casino. She was a very lucky person when it came to gambling. My grandma had become my rock over the years. Maybe it was the fact I was the first grandchild and I was a girl. Oh boy did I get spoiled over the years. I had my grandparents all to myself for five years. It was wonderful to go to Grandma and Grandpa's house, most of the family was still around the area. I lived with my grandparents when I was born because my dad had got Rocky Mountain Fever. No one was as close to my grandma as I was. I was heartbroken when she was diagnosed with cancer not once, not twice, but three times.

In October of 2003 they had come to Nebraska to fly out to Ohio to see my Aunt Sandy. They returned beginning of November, I had went down to visit them because they were leaving the next day. I remember the conversation I had with my grandma, she was asking me if my allergies caused me not to breathe at times. I think that was her way of telling me something was wrong. That evening my grandpa woke up to my grandma saying the lords prayer and not being able to breathe that well. The ambulance took her to UNMC. I had hoped and prayed that she would make it through. She had up and down days for weeks. I had taken a leave from work so that I could be with her. I left to sleep and get something to eat otherwise I was with her. My aunt from Ohio flew in, and my uncle from Missouri came up. Things had turned bad she had tubes shoved down her throat she looked like she was in so much pain. On Friday the 14th they had removed the tube because she had got a lot better. She was in great spirits laughing talking on the phone, hugging all of us. So my uncle went back to Missouri that evening. We got the phone call at 11:45 pm on the 14th that she was going downhill and we needed to get there. I was there within 10 minutes. I was shaking the whole way there. We finally took her off all machines but oxygen I believe it was at 3:15 am on the 15th. My rock didn't want to give up, the way her vitals were they thought she would be gone within minutes. She lived until 7:45 pm she fought all the way to the end. That whole day is so vivid to me that I had nightmares for months. I still have the outfit that I had on that day.

I have come to believe she is my guardian angel now. Grandma I miss you so much and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you. Your picture is right next to my bed. I love you very very much. I wish you would come back to me and help me out in these bad times.

Holiday Irritations

Holidays are suppose to be happy times. November is a terrible depressing month for me. Both of my grandmothers (Grandma Thomas and step grandma Darlene, my grandpa quick's wife) passed away on November 15 same hospital and same floor. A little freaky if you ask me. Then on top of it there thanksgiving and you are suppose to be thankful doesn't usually work to well these past years for me. Well lets just add to it its my birthday right around thanksgiving. However these aren't my irritations there are things you have to deal with in life. The thing that irritates me is stores having holiday decorations out before Halloween, or people having lights up and on before thanksgiving. The bell ringers are already ringing and its just annoying to go to every store and there is a ringer. Yes I put in my fair share but come on starting at the beginning of November for this. I might just be grouchy since its the day before my grandma died but I figured it was something to blog about and get off my chest.

What holiday things irritate you?

I have become addicted to my facebook account. I have never had this issue but one of my friends bombed me I wasn't sure what that was about. So I started playing pirates and I can't stop. I love figuring out new things on this and its moving in on my free time. Oh well at least it keeps me occupied and I don't think about other things.

The other thing is going okay we are still friends so we talk daily. Other then that I am taking it day by day doing my own thing. Time will tell how things turn out but I am finding myself in all of this. Its making me a stronger person.

Officially....Over

Well the last 6 months have been such a roller coaster emotional and physically for me. Bill and I have had our problems and have been trying to work them out. We are now going our separate ways after 6 years. I am beyond crushed and can barely keep focused. I don't even want to get out of bed in the morning. This is why I haven't been posting to much because I am just at a loss of words. Time will heal everything. Just thought I would post an update of what is going on in my life. I will most likely won't be posting for a while but at least you all know why.

25 days till....

I turn 25. I get to work on my birthday usually I have it off because it falls either on Thanksgiving or on the weekend. It falls on the worst day of the week Monday. Mondays aren't good days for me. They can be very stressful hopefully it will be a good one though.