Tradition

I remember a tradition that my grandma and I used to do every summer. I would stay with my grandparents all summer long until I was seventeen. Every summer grandma and I would make chocolate chip cookies. It was so much fun. We would do different sizes and at the end we would always make on great big cookie to share. I have pictures somewhere of a couple different cookies we would make. Each year I would think the big cookie was getting smaller. It was just that I was getting older. I miss making cookies with my grandma.

What are things you miss doing that was a tradition in your family?

Results

Well the results are in: I have lost 2% body fat but I have gained weight in some areas. That is a good sign though because that means my fat is turning into muscle. I don't know if I want a bunch of muscle but I don't want to be flabby. So I can deal with a little muscle. Now I just have to achieve the rest of my goals.

Final

Tonight is my final work out with my personal trainer. Hopefully it will be a good one. I have just about met my goal for this month I am two pounds away. I still have a few days left so hopefully I can lose them. I have been able to eat the amount of calories and the "good stuff". I got into an outfit that was tight at the end of the summer last year. So that makes me feel really good that I can get into it. The next question will be is did i lose any body fat? I hope so but who knows until they measure.

OUCH!!

So I just found out I don't have wind burn! I went last week to the dermatologist and they switched my face medicine. The doctor didn't tell me that one of the medicines was only suppose to be once every other day until I called today the nurse told me that it was in his notes that way. Well it would have been nice to know because now I have a red face that feels like it is on fire!

Wind burn

Oh does it hurt to the point that I want to cry. How did this happen? Well I spent a nice relaxing Friday and Saturday at my parents cabin in Tekemah. I helped dad with the yard work. I got to use the riding lawn mower. Didn't think to much of how windy it was until I stopped and my face felt like it was on fire. We went into to town to Ronnie's to have lunch. Then mom, bailey and I went up to Oakland for a while. I love that small town it is so cute. My face just started to hurt even more. When we got back to the cabin I had more mowing to do and the wind had picked up even more. It is all red and peeling it still burns. If you have any remedies let me know I am up for anything right now!!!

Meals

My cousin La Dawn posted about her nanny's canned meat and how good it was. I have been sitting here thinking about meals that my families makes for get together or when you are there visiting. Nanny was known for her canned meat and just about anything else she made was awesome. My grandma was known for her fried chicken oh it was so good. I miss these meals and how good they were. When you try and make it its just not the same. Not only are the meals good but so our remembering the times that went with it. I can remember when grandma made fried chicken she had a stool she sat on in the kitchen and I would sit right next to her and watch. You would think I could make it but I can't.

What memories do you have of meals with loved ones that have passed on?

Vacation

I get to go on a semi vacation in May. I am going to Wheatland Missouri with Bill. He will be racing done there at a really nice track. He asked me to go so I was able to get the time off. I am so excited to go and watch him race. I'm hoping I will be able to get my family that lives around the lake to come and watch since it is close to them. My luck though these races will get rained out. That is what has happened to me in the years past either they get rained out half way there or the weather is so yucky you just don't even want to be there. Lets hope for the best!

Workout videos

A while back ago I bought these work out videos called Windsor Pilates. I used to do them all the time and I was like wow there is nothing to this. So Tuesday night the gym was having a Pilates class so I was like that is something different then my regular routine I will go and do that. Wow needless to say I was doing those videos so wrong! I have been so sore in my abs the past two days. Tonight is yoga but I am not sure if I will do it since it goes into my Grey's anatomy. I may just do my regular routine. I have lost a few more pounds. I have been trying to be so good but it is hard when your boyfriend has fallen off the wagon and keeps waiting food that isn't good. I have been able to stay focused and that is a huge plus for me. Its like when you are a little kid and your parents have a chart for you when you do something good you get to put a gold star on it. Well I have made an excel spreadsheet and looking at it makes me happy and feels like I am achieving something.

What makes someone do such a terrible thing?

Last night at dinner Bill and I was listening to the press hound the police chief for answers about the shooting at VA Tech. It was terrible how the press would try and twist the words. I was sitting there in shock one because of the whole thing and two how the press was. I understand this is a terrible thing but step back take a second they may not have answers right away quit trying to get him to say something. I would rather have all the information at once that is accurate then someone reading more into what the chief of police said.

My other thing about this is what makes someone do such a terrible thing? How do you not know that someone is this messed up? Was there signs or warnings that were disregarded? Is it peer pressure that made this person snap and if so get some help don't kill someone. If this was my child that did something like this I would disown them so fast. You don't kill another human being I don't care how mad you are at someone and to take other peoples lives that had nothing to do with it.

It is such a tragedy, I remember back to Columbine if I am not mistaken it was in April also. My cousin Ed's ex girlfriend Georgeanne took me to the high school in June when I was out there. You could just feel the pain and sorrow that those people went through. The Columbine devastated people and brought on tons of security to schools. What's next for college's security? Will you not be able to have certain things in your dorm rooms now?

Weekend where did it go??

My weekend flew by it wasn't even funny. I worked Saturday and Sunday from 7-1. Saturday I went shopping form 3 pm until 9 pm. I got three new outfits so that made me happy. Sunday I went shopping with my friend Jamie. It was great to catch up with her since she moved to Wahoo Nebraska. Bill practiced yesterday out at York Nebraska so he left at 9 am and didn't get home until 9 pm last night. Long day for him and me since I didn't get to see him at all.

My week is looking to be a busy one, tomorrow morning I have to take my SUV to Blair to get serviced and my uncle is letting me bring his car back to work. Wednesday I have my last appointment with my trainer. Thursday I am going to see a dermatologist which I hope he can help me. Friday I am a "single woman" until Monday as long as Mother Nature behaves. I will try and get some post done this week.

Some accomplishment

Well I have acheived some of my accomplishment for getting into shape. I have lost 6 pounds since April 2nd. I can go up my stairs at home without being winded, which is a huge plus. I have changed quite a few of my eating habits. I thought that was going to be the toughest but it has become so much easier after the first week. I will keep you updated. Wednesday I get to find out if I have lost any body fat.

The winner is...

Mother nature again. Bill was suppose to go racing this weekend and mother nature is the winner again. He just wants to go racing but you can't do that when there is snow where you are suppose to race. So I get another weekend to spend with him until the season starts.

I got that allergy shot yesterday and I am so glad I did. I didn't wake up this morning all congested it was great. I haven't had that feeling in years during allergy season. If you have allergies I highly recommend it.

I know this is short but I really don't have much to blog about its snow rainy day and I just want to go curl up by the fireplace. I will get an update posted about my gym and weight progress one of these days soon. Its all a good sign.

Pictures

My 8 month old cousin Brody and I

Mary, Brooke and Bailey

Season is here and to stay

Allergy season is here and to stay for some months. My head is pounding so hard right now I would love to go take a nice hot shower and nap. I have decided to try something different this year. I am getting an allergy shot this afternoon and it is suppose to last through the whole season. We will have to see. It will be nice not to have to be suffering and taking medicine on a daily basis.

Last weekend

Well the parties are over and the week has come to return to work. Still have family in town till wednesday. Tonight will be the last of seeing them at dinner. It is always good to see the family that is from out of state. I love my family dearly but boy they haven't helped with this diet. I had a lot of temptations but I was good. I had a very very small piece of cake on Saturday at the party and I didn't eat the frosting. I even lost weight that day. So that made me happy. Gotta love mom she gave Bill and I an easter basket which we didn't want because we are trying to lose weight. It is hidden for that lovely time of the month when I get those really bad cravings if you get in my way you better watch out or those midnight cravings where just one small piece will do it. I haven't had any of those yet but I am sure it is to come.

Saturday after the party we went through the rest of my grandma's stuff. It was so hard to go through it. I cried most of the way home. I have had a really hard time with this and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier. My grandpa has remarried a very nice lady but I have a hard time accepting the fact that there is someone new in my grandpa's life. I am getting better about it but it is extremely difficult.

Sunday I waitressed and made dinner for Bill and I because my family was still in Nebraska City and I wouldn't make it down in time for dinner. We had cajun pork chops that bill grilled and they were awesome! I made some potatoes. It was fun making dinner together. I get a kick out of we got a kitchen table for this apartment (I got rid of my old one because it needed a lot of work done to it) and we still sit on the floor at the coffee table in the living room. I think we have ate twice at the table.

I have the camera back I just need to download the pictures tonight so hopefully you will see them soon!

Coming Soon

The pictures will be coming soon. I left my camera with my mom this weekend so she could take more pictures.

Happy Easter

I remember when I was little Easter was so much fun. I always got a big stuffed rabbit, a chocolate bunny and peeps. There was many times we weren't home in Nebraska for Easter. I remember being in Colorado with all my family out there. That was a lot of fun. The easter egg hunt in the backyard of Aunt Joyce's house. It didn't matter how small Aunt Joyce's house was we all fit in there for the holiday. If you know our family you know how many of us there was. It didn't ever seen tight until it was food time. Then one year I was in Arkansas with my mom's side wow that was 19 years ago when we went down there. My mom always made sure I had the cutest dress for Easter with a bonnet. My favorite one was this yellow one I had that had this cute yellow hat with it. I was so mad when I grew out of it. I believe it is still in the closet at my parents.

Remembering all these memories makes me happy and sad. I miss all the love ones that have been taken away from me in these. Mainly my grandma Thomas and aunt Joyce. I try to fight back tears but sometimes you just can't. I know they are all in a better place but I guess I am just selfish because I want them back here alive and well. I can sit here wishing there was something different that could have been done but its a part of life. I love you both very much and miss you very much.

Hope everyone has a Happy Easter. I doubt I will be able to post anything this weekend with my grandpa's 80Th birthday party and my dad's 50Th birthday party tomorrow. Till Monday have a good one!

Friday

It is Friday, I can't wait for the day to be over. I have an appointment with the trainer tonight and I am going to catch up on cleaning. Since I had been concentrating so much on the old place. Fridays is catch up day at the office. I am not motivated to do anything today. I have been working my butt off all week. I will get it done though I just need to get some caffeine in me. I sit here thinking how hungry I am which I need to stop I have lost 2 lbs this week. Its a start. I'm slowly finding different things to eat since I can only have so many calories a day. I have been trying to find foods that have a lot of potassium in them. I don't care to much for bananas I will eat them if I have to but I would rather have something else. Any ideas? Well off to get some caffeine.

Irritated

I don't have a problem helping someone out. However when I am sitting there busting my butt to make sure something is getting down and the person that asked for help is walking around talking to everyone and constantly laughing. I am going to stop doing what you asked and concentrate on my job instead of this persons job. Now this person is all mad at me today because I put the project back on there desk because I have been swamped with my boss being out of town. This person confronted me about it today and I said I have other things to do then this project. Am I in the wrong because this person sure is acting like it?

Mother Nature Wins

The races for this weekend have already been won! The winner was Mother Nature! I like wins like that it doesn't cost any money and we didn't wreck anything. Bill and Bill Jr are a little bummed about it but now they can work more in the shop is what they told me last night. I just rolled my eyes. I love supporting him but at times I get so aggravated by how much time he spends with those cars. I am hoping this year won't be as bad since Billy Jr is working on them this year with him. Last year it was just Bill doing it all. So hopefully it will be a better year.

Pictures

I keep getting questions about pictures. I will get some soon I promise. Maybe this weekend since all the family is getting together. My dad is turning 50 this month and my grandpa(my mom's dad) is turning 80 so we are having a small get together with the family on Saturday in Nebraska City. My aunt from ohio will be in and so will my uncle from Missouri. So that should be exciting. I will make sure we get a newer family picture so I can post it and definetly one of us three girls.

If anyone has any good ideas for a gift for my dad let me know? Over the hill again!

Sore

My body is so sore right now I want to just take a nice long bath and relax. I enjoyed my work out last night. He had me sweating within 5 minutes of my workout which usually I don't even break a sweat. That is a good sign I am hoping buring more calories. I am going to go for a little bit tonight and do very light cardio. I was in shock when I got on the scale at the gym. I have a scale at home. I get on it every morning. Somehow from 7 am till 6 last night I gained 10 lbs. I don't believe that one bit. So one of the scales are off. I did take into account though when I weigh myself in the morning I don't have clothes on and I haven't ate anything. Unlike at the gym I had at 4 meals already and I had clothes on and shoes. So that does matter a little. I am changing one of my goals the weight one to I want to lose 25 lbs.

The trainer changed my calorie intake. I was allowed to take in 1800 well he cut it down quite a bit to 1250 calories. I am going to be eating like a bird. I have to stay positive about it I am going to be able to do this.

Bill's race car

Bill races a dirt late model. He travels all over the Midwest. Tracks that he goes to around home are I-80 in Greenwood Nebraska and Blackbird Bend Speedway in Onawa, Iowa. Last year we weren't at Blackbird due to they stopped the class he was in but this year they are bring it back. This weekend he is going to Davenport Iowa and West Liberty Iowa. Maybe I will get a schedule up. I will get some pictures up of the car once we get it out on the track and I am actually there. Yes I am being a baby this week and not going because I want to stay warm. I also want to stay well since I just finished getting over this cold a few weeks ago.

Goals

My goals for this diet and physical trainer are:

1. To get down to a size 6.
2. To lose about 15-20 lbs
3. Get in shape and not be so tired after just going a few times up and down the stairs.
4. To look good and feel good about myself.

These are my goals and hope I stick to them.

Trainer

Well last night went good. Tonight will be the test for me at the gym. We did a basic orientation last night at the gym. Troy took my around showed me different things. We sat down did my membership and set everything up for tonight. Tonight is the fun part where we get to see how much body fat I have and all that good stuff. Ross is going to be my trainer on the equipment and Troy is my health advisor. I will inform everyone tomorrow how tonight goes.

Season Starts Maybe?

Well tonight is suppose to start the race season, kind of its practice tonight to get all the cobwebs out of the cars. However mother nature might take this one for the record. The storm last night was great I slept like a baby but I am still tired. If mother nature calls this race tonight the season will offically start friday. Then again mother nature might get that one due to the temp outside. The cars don't like to start when its below 50. It is very hard on equipment also. It could end up being a good thing for me. More time with my other half.

Personal Trainer

I get to met my personal trainer, Troy in a little bit. I'm excited to do this now. He called to confirm my appointment this afternoon. Very good communication skills and professionalism a huge plus. Hopefully I will be looking good in 60 days and ready for that swim suit. My cravings haven't been that bad yet. It is still early in the day though.

Diet Time

Well today is the start of my diet. Yuck I hate dieting but I hate the way my body looks right now. It hasn't been to bad yet. I am sure I will be craving something I shouldn't by this afternoon. I start the gym tonight so that should be somewhat interesting. I am not to keen on it but I know I have to do something different. I do really good on eating chicken and pork chops but when I see steak I get into trouble. What can I say I grew up on red meat and potatoes. I will keep you updated on the whole diet thing. I have a partner with it so I should be able to keep on track.